PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY O LORD

ACTUALLY,I HATE DOING THIS(WRITING A BLOG)AS I M NOT REALLY INTO IT.BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE.I REALLY HAVE TO TALK TO SOMEONE,BUT NO ONE SEEMS OR WILL EVER UNDERSTAND ME.NEVER.I LOVED AND I DO LOVE HER SO MUCH.BUT SHE DONT SEEMS TO UNDERSTANDS ME.I HAVE TRIED SO HARD TO IMPRESS HER.BUT,INSTEAD GETTING THE TITLE THAT IM THE 'WORST BOYFRIEND'.AM I THAT BAD?DONT I KNOW THE MEANING OF LOVE?DO I ACTUALLY HAVE THE HEART TO CHEAT SOMEONE IN LOVE?DONT I KNOW HOW TO KEEP HER HAPPY?WHY?WHY DOES ANYONE ACTUALLLY DONT FEEL THE PAIN TO LEAVE ME?AM I SUCH A JERK,THAT EVERYONE WANTS TO LET ME GO?I CANT TAKE THIS PAIN.GETTING ACCUSED AND BLAMED FOR THE THINGS WHICH I DINT DO?IM JUST LIKE A CHILD PERHAPS.WHY CANT ANYONE EVER UNDERSTAND THE HEAET OF THIS CHILD??JUST WANA LET HER KNOW,THAT IVE LOVED HER WITH ALL MY HEART,SOUL AND STRENGTH.IM JUST SORRY FOR BEING LOYAL,FOR BEING CARING,AND FOR EVERYTHING ELSE.AND IF THERE IS ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO ME,I JUST WANA LET HER KNOW THAT I LOVE HER SO MUCH.